Early this year, I came across a person in my fyp in one of the social media. I listened and scroll the content of her account but didn't laugh about it. I find it weird to see the content. The person that I saw was a celebrity that talked about astral projection and I can't comprehend what was that all about. I felt her fear like there's going to happen bad and I was a bit curious like what is going to happen that she sees that I don't or the world doesn't know. That was it.
On and off, she will appear in my feed and I just observe because I don't know anything about what she's saying. It's very foreign to me what she's saying. I can picture in my mind what she's talking but I can't understand in her level and I can't connect anything in my life. I treated it like 'oh its just a content'.
Somewhere around August I am at a point of mental torture on my relationship with my husband. I felt the weight of sadness in me that I can no longer feel happiness. All I keep on seeing is this very negative energy between us keep on crashing each other's nerves. It was a very straining point in time between us. I also felt lonely because I kept losing friends, my social media income isn't doing pretty good, I can no longer rely on my immediate family, my son and I having conflicting ideas during study time and it's like negative forces all coming in to me crashing me to the core. The loneliness and emptiness is coming back at me again. I've always known this feeling since I was a child and it's like slapping in to my face again. I am married. I have a son. Im working at home but why I feel so strange. Why am I feeling so incomplete. I can't understand the feeling why.
Then a month passed by. The Storm season doing its course. The strange thing I've noticed was the thunder and lightning. It was very apparent to me and weird. It's like I'm going to be hit one day. It goes on and off and I even asked my husband about the strange noise with this thunder and lightning. He just said its nothing compared to his experiences in the USA. The thought of it was brushed off because if it was not something significant to someone then it's just an ordinary phenomena.
Aside from the thunder and lightning, this was this strange noise in the sky. I've heard and thinking my husband heard it too. It was like someone is coming. It doesn't sound like a trumpet but a gong that resonates and the echoes linger to the ear. I didn't tell my husband about it because I thought he heard it but it just me that heard it all along. I asked him one day if he ever heard a strange gong in the sky but he said no but this was after my awakening.
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