I am not religious and not spiritual when I was awaken. But I have a strong faith yes. I believe just one thing all of my life, don't hurt people. That I carry growing up.
I grow up in a household of Love isnt shown through word but only respect and kindness is. but along the way, persuaded by emotional distress the family is turned upside down.
I have been isolated with the world growing up. I have less knowledge other than what is thought in school. Reading news was not my cup of tea as well as reading books will make me fall asleep. I live in a 3rd world country so technology was falling deeply behind so watching Tv and movies came only 2/3 of my life.
Currently, I have been out with news, movies, music because I just felt the negativity it gets. I have seen movies once in a while but oftentimes I rather just use app and watch funny stuff 😂. the drama in the world isn't my thing but I am still a nosy human being.
my awakening with kundalini happens because I just can't stand the negativity of the world. I asked several times to check me out with this situation. My plea wasn't answered until I was sick with a 102-105f fever for over a week. no medicine can heal my headache and all I did was just laying down. The slight of getting up was painful but I need to eat and go to the bathroom. I don't know what's going on it's like it was my first kind of debilitating pain that will not go away.
The electric charges on my body came on the 5th day when it started. Twitching nerves all day long just half of my body as well as My 3rd eye is pulsing non stop. I felt so hopeless and I just fall to sleep to forget my pain. The fever did stop on the 8th day when I told myself to forget taking medicine. it just make me sick more. And yes, it was a miracle for me.
but the electric charge on my body was new to me and I didn't know what's going on with me. Even the fever is gone, the energy in the body and the 3rd eye pulsing won't stop either. It is something I didn't know how to solve. until I went to an app and browse til I came the word awakening.
When I've realized what is happening, I helplessly start meditating when I don't even know how. I just followed my instinct just to listen a guided meditation but I can't really focus either 😂. I tried several times and I end up like nothing until reading is just for me and listening to people's work. Then one day came, finally meditation work with my body and able to stabilize the energetic concurrence. All of this happening in 2 months...No mentor, no help was done with the external other than following what I've known my instinct...How hard it is to know what you don't know in the first place.
When you're spiritual so the instinct could have been source and higher self working and guiding me what to do.
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