Once you are awaken you would assume that you can get what you want easily right? Yes I did too 😁 Months later instead I get excited about it, desperation hit hard. Areas of my interest turn sideways, left and right ideas become useless, it's like hope is gone. Talking about frequency, yes it could happen but you don't have to stay that way.
My solution to it is, I was contemplating and I've realized, I have self love problem and being safe. Love is the highest frequency of all. You are an essence of Love and this quality in your being must returned or remembered. My ego or I say my programming did have a hard time riding the system. Rapid thoughts from meaning to meaning become an endless cycle. When I saw through silence, observing, listening to my thoughts I saw the pattern I was looping.
I love to create stories after story, reason here and there. I then stop listening. Not ignoring but not believing any of it. I begun to know which is coming from my soul or just thoughts that appear elsewhere. This is part of a self inquiry that some are doing now and boy yes that clears space in the mind.
My thoughts are like clouds appearing and disappearing. If you are not still enough to notice, you might have agreed an idea you never thought you did.
So it's a practice. To train yourself to get stable and distinguish your own voice.
Once you get stable, manifestation is no longer like an obligation or like a task since you are now commanding the field what you want.
Knowing what thoughts and feelings are, it become like second nature and it's like you dont manifest or aware of manifesting since you are directing the field now. You are the controller of your reality. Not any coincidental Manifesting based on belief.
I tested it this year even I have doubts. If in the moment I know who is aware 'the I am presence' is there, its instant. The result is within the day.
One example I had was I left my documents together with my bank book at Hongkong airport. it's a big airport and it's less of a chance someone has the time to take time and deliver it to the loss and found. It's very unusual. I manifested it. I declared I had my stuff and that nothing is lost and nothing is missing. So it did happen. My husband got a voicemail stating someone found it and the airline arrange the documents near enough when we transit within the airport and after a week we had it.
I only had fall short if I declare something I'm not too sure of or if I don't really want it. Other than that, if I'm certain and I have a desire, its instant.
If you want to ask me to clarify something in your journey and are feeling drawn to my frequency, DO IT PLEASE. You can find me and watch my videos on the redapp - Rochetalks. I will be happy to make a video for you and explain which part of your journey you want to get clarity on. This is my service to the community.