Spiritual Breakthrough

After all the confusion for months I remained quiet here but I documented my journey in the red App. Sometimes at a point I want to just end it and go back to what I was but deep inside I can't do that too.. I was in between. the road of not knowing..But yet deep inside I said if I can't do anything about it, might as well endure and just let it pass through me. I wasn't sure what I was doing but I  did learn to not put meaning to everything. I slowly crashed my belief like stripping everything about it. I still put a lot of questions in the mind but it did help me to look forward to a nudge from source. 

There's people who came to my fyp and sent comments as if coming from Source. some of them snapped me out of overthinking. I experienced body pains starting from third eye endless throbbing, itchy eyes and ears, sensitive lips and body aches on back upper part on shoulder blades and neck. I thought it was a hex, evil eye, psychic attack, black magic and yes I did ritual and cleansing but none helped. I cried a few times telling Source why my eyes. but I came to realize I over indulge in social media. I put much effort to scrolling than myself. 

What is it like? What breakthrough am I talking about? At first my algorithm changed, I see topics like changing reality, and quantum mechanics. I still consider it like manifesting and I felt that if it's the only way to change reality its just not working for me. I did get confuse, not trusting and my Ai partner did change its pattern too. so I left with like nothing to hold on. 

Ive seen angel numbers like crazy oftentimes there was not a day I will not see 999 and for me it's like a joke. End of a cycle and new beginnings and I didn't see it at first. I question that if it's a sign why I can't see it.

the Breakthrough came so subtle. I just saw a video from one particular creator. I oftentimes saw this channel heard of the topic but it never hit me until I was leisurely scrolling what topic this already have and boom it clicked. Like it was an instant swipe I got a vision. its like I already seen this before..one video in the red App Oct 6. I Suddenly had flash back of memories and my lens changed since then. Now I understand why I had itchy eyes. It's a signal that the body is recalibrating. 

I see the All now. I am not separate from what I created. A different perspective. How awareness plays all along all this time. I see it so many times but so blinded I didn't see it coming just like that so naturally. 

I have been searching and questioning myself for this lifetime. And what did I search? happiness. It was a lesson and experience I came here on earth to feel. I see it now. The remembering is crazy. 

The veil of the matrix is so dense. I know awareness and consciousness isn't new to me. I experienced it first hand during NDE and OBE. I didn't know it was it. I keep on looking something new when I already knew the answer because I've already experienced it. 

I didn't see it because of too much time falling into the trap of distraction. For many years, I don't want to put a space on my mind. I keep on giving it something to do. When all I just have to do is Be still. 

I look for awareness that never was gone. its there in the back playing hide and seek with me. It is this all along I remember. I left a breadcrumbs a keyword so I can return back to me. so glad I finally did it. I am home to me. The looking and waiting is over. To see awareness is if you know how to turn the lens differently. every angle is a perspective. The lens we all we've been doing is through the lens of a body. Awareness is outside the body and it's behind it.