Fog

Since I started working everyday from M-F I droved to work 20 minutes before 8am. The distance to my house to work is just 4 miles away. Due to the many traffic lights and stops along the way I had to put an allowance on the time. I am very diligent working early. The 18months I been doing this, not a chance where I was late. Too lucky that I work very close to home.

Yesterday, it was foggy. It was a bit heavier than my previous experience. I left the house 7:42am walked to the driveway and went to the car. It was misty so I wiped with bare hands both the driver and passenger side mirror and get inside. I turned on the engine wiped my rear window and front. I waited few minutes to heat up the engine. Then droved. I was scared a little to drove when I couldn't see too far. I slowed my driving to be very cautious. Other drivers did the same thing. While I was in my seat, it refreshed to memory how my husband taught me to drive safe in that kind of weather condition. I was glad I had remembered what he told me so I felt better steering the wheels on my car. The winter this year was so colder than the first year I started working. With the fog coming in, it is really better to get extra careful and watch other drivers who are driving fast in that condition.

Kind of busy

The 2 days that passed, work is a bit busy. The phone lines kept on ringing. I was glad that it did. It just made the day ran fast. My recycling paper wasn't that busy since we didn't have much dropped off. Quite slow for E-waste this month. I am hoping that it will gets better in the coming days. The director and I talked a bit today before she left for her meeting at our main office and she said that perhaps I might consider handing some brochure or putting some of it on cars. It could be one way of helping. Well, if the weather is right it will be effective to let people know we do need more stuff. But I am not really pushing myself hard on that. Besides my pay isn't that high and I have more work to do in the office. My time in the office already compensates my current pay. I am just lucky I have my job and that the people I worked with are cool and nice. I hope they will stay the same. I know how good they are except there is just one that I don't admire.

Weird Weather

It should be cold now or feeling the chill atmosphere. But the weather here in the bay seemed to up and down. It reached in the 80's which somehow peculiar. Tomorrow will be much more hotter than today's weather. I am ready for the cold season. Summer this year is long. Which I think is good, but the increase and falling of temperature makes me sick. I hope it's going to be a steady weather.

At my job today was slow. It's not the same compare last years volume of calls. It's like we are waiting for the rain to fall. The time to work in a slow phase is quite getting longer too. I hope calls will pick up soon and schedules will get better. Also one thing today, I hate one of the staff from the main office. She insulted me today while she wanted to get a schedule for her nephew that somehow I wasn't able to schedule. She wanted to have a quick reply on that. Liz was out of duty she's sick so I just told that nephew of hers to call back tomorrow to talk to Liz. I ended with the conversation with that guy fine but her reaction to that conversation was different. I am boiling with anger. I sent Liz an email about what happened. I will check tomorrow what could be her reaction to that.

Slow at work

For the past 2 weeks now my work ethic is getting better. We already have a new employee. Almost the same age as me but she's a year older. She got people skills and her phone etiquette is wonderful. She's a good co-worker. I hope she will not change. I got a little issue on her being forgetful and not doing some of her task where I ended up doing it but it's okay. I forgive her on that. She's still a new employee so she needs to have more training on that aspect. I hope it's not gonna be a ritual setting where I will remind her at all times. That could pissed me off.

Today was kind of slow. My recycling paper work is on time too. We don't have so much delivery at the recycling site. Our collections at this point is getting slow. So at my spare time just browsing some other recycling companies on how they promote their e-waste pick ups. I just need some ideas so that in the near future when my boss will call me up for an idea I could have something to give him or something to talk about.

Off from Work

Every third Friday in my company we have this alternating off. So today is my day. It's really a good way they have it planned. Instead of working 37.5 a week, we accumulate the hours we missed and altogether take it in one day. It's a good idea. At first I was thinking it is so bad because I can't get to work full time. Now I realized with my work, it's definitely a plus because I can get to relax more although I am not paid on that day. Still, it's worth it. Health is more important than money.

The last off I was with Ji-ann. Now I will going to see Ji-ann again. We talked on the phone and she will get me at 11am. We will have some lunch and also Judith will be there too. It will be much more fun hanging out with this two spontaneous friends. See you in a couple of hours and will let you know how our day has been.

Hectic Day

I didn't get much sleep last night and wake up tired. I went to work with a heavy feeling. I grabbed then my task to phase up my day fast. My boss called and told me Kim will not be working. He told me that his going to find someone else to replace her. It's about her days of time off that's bugging him. Oh well I hope he will push it for real. His been telling me 2 weeks ago that there will be changes but until now it's all the same. Maybe his just slow to make it work. Even my increase was a bit delayed for a week but it doesn't matter as long as he got me on the list.

Liz and I worked very hard today with a moderate to fast mode of phone calls. It's not so stressful because we didn't get much complaint. I received 2 lost articles on the phone that needs special attention so that's what was slowing me down. Other than that, I am helping Richard with his report and doing my task. I haven't done much with my recycling paper work. I will going to do that tomorrow hopefully the phone calls will slow down.

My night today is much better than yesterday. I feel light hearted and loved. Not much details as to why but I just want to leave it that way. As long as I feel fine now and hopefully I can sleep better tonight.

Drained

I work today with a happy feeling but turned stress when I was alone joggling the calls. My boss and Liz were having serious discussion with Auto donation where they had a meeting with a tow company. They wanted to come up a better solution in dealing with the pick up service. I had heard Liz with positive attitude when she arrived from the meeting but my mind was so perplexed with the task. My day was tiring me and my boss let me go home early for that. At least they recognized how tiring that could be. It will be okay if I am just joggling appointments and schedules. If adding phone dispatching and donor on site. That's killing me. I went home and arrived at 4:10 tired. I relaxed a little bit and used my laptop again. I edited some photos and made a collage for our wedding anniversary to eased my tiring day. I am happy of the result. This is my 2nd collage for the year I believe. I haven't been doing any scrap booking for a very long time.

Performance Review

I had submitted my performance review last Thursday, Sept 11. From then on, my mind keep on thinking about how will my boss rate me. It gave me a chill every time I think about it. Friday I was off and I went out with my friend Ji-ann. It helped me not to think about it. Weekend went by fast, did nothing very significant. I just stayed most of the time at home spending quality time with hubby. Monday passed and I occupied my time doing all paperwork. I got tons of them so it really occupied so much of my time. Not to mention doing paperwork, I was scanning our database for our special spick up for the week. My mind concentrated on my job. The boss did work at home so I got a plenty of time to work on my task. And today, at 2pm I was called for my review. I don’t want to tell you all the details on the whole thing but I am very happy. My boss and other supervisor give me a positive feedback on my work and skills. I got a 15% salary increase. It’s not too bad.

Performance Review

My boss handed me a sheet to write on for the performance review. It's a thrilling part because this will rely on how my performance level for the year. It can give me benefit as to salary increase per say. I just did finish my thoughts and answering 9 questions of it with the help of course my ever helpful husband. I will do the other 1 left tomorrow and submit it to my boss in the afternoon. I will be kind of busy tomorrow doing 2 major task and I will give him my personal assessment. I hope he will be satisfied. I wish for a better rate increase and good level of comfort from him.

Work Gets better

I didn't like working my company because there were people that pisses me off. But now since one of them quit, I felt like its getting easier for me to work and got some ideas. The new employee on her first week was bad. We had misunderstanding on the training. I got very upset on that. My boss had to talk to us one on one and cleared out the issues. On her 3rd week now, I felt light hearted with her. She's young, she's hype and opinionated but she's fun. I like her more than the one who left. My feelings towards working is getting better and my heart doesn't worry anymore. My boss had felt the same way. The office atmosphere changed. So I hope things will change for the better and we will be working in unity.

Need to Say more?

Well no. I don't have anything significant topic to write about except I am pissed at work with Liz got sick and called in she will not report to work. She always do that every month. The management doesn't give her warning seriously on how tardy she is. I hate it when there is favoritism in the company. I would say she's a good employee very hardworking but when in terms of how progressive she is with calls and auto donation. If not me being helpful to take care all of the auto schedules she must be twisted. I support her with that so she can be relax. Personality I have no against her, she's a very good person but for work ethic sometimes I got pissed.

Tiring Days

I got so tired yesterday with the work load. Liz took her personal off so it was less manpower. It drained my energy. In addition to the load, there were donors pissing my day. But I controlled myself, let go the worst feeling forget about it and didn't take it personally. The minute I walked in to the house I had to do all the chores and tired me more. I just checked my email for minutes, had dinner with hubby and fell to sleep on the couch with slightly open mouth. Sounds funny isn't it. I made me smile when I felt I did that. It was because I got tired from the days work.

Today, I was busy in the afternoon doing my schedule. It took me awhile to do it because I was joggling the phones and my concentration was interrupted. I just made 1 week schedule. I talked to my boss at his office and we did wrap up 2 weeks. He thanked me for the job well done and my thoughts. I feel good at it.

I was glad today to my outlook buddies who made my day. I was bored a bit early part of the day and I sent them email. They replied me back with a delighted response. I had gone to the day a light feeling from them. If I had not, receiving so much hang ups with donors today would not made me gone the day. Also after work, I met Myrabel and we hang out at Valley fair. It took my stress away. I was glad she invited me for a walk.

Nice evening

Today I was kind of busy at work. The morning was kind of slow and I almost feel like sleeping. The calls weren't that many so I tried several things to make myself look like being busy. In the afternoon, the letterhead that I was waiting did arrived. So I busied myself printing over 200 proposal letters for the dry cleaners in the area. I was doing the whole thing in the afternoon with it until it can be ready to ship. There are still more letters that I need to get it done tomorrow but it will not be too long.

When I get home, I pressed my clothes, washed some dishes and opened my laptop. I checked all my email account and opened yahoo chat too. Jane then called me while I was chatting with my multiply friends. It was a multi tasking scenario. Later on Leen called too, we had a good time to talk. It is a very pleasant evening where people do care reciprocating your thoughts for them.

No fun but ok

Work is been okay for the past few days except last week’s Monday. It was terrible I feel like quitting on the spot. If not for the director’s encouragement and kind heart I could not survive in the company. I haven’t submitted my resignation yet but it will come. I am just finishing my job what the director told me to do so. This project involves a waiting period before we could start on and settle on it. I wanted to leave the company when the proposal is working or if not at least I could have finished doing what I must need to do. As long as this boss of mine will not keep on jumping guns on me, I could be fine. Leaving a company is not so great and I want to make sure that if I leave I made all projects and responsibility done. I need that good recommendation from the director since this is my very first job.

No fun today but it’s an okay feeling to work with no boss pressuring. But tomorrow will be a busy day for me since I will do 1 week route schedule for the month of June. It is a challenging responsibility to set up a schedule for each location in a given day. My analytical skill is measured on this. I was very scared at first if I can really do it especially you need to use your brain and judgment. I just want to do the job that’s very typical but my boss wants me to do something else so he gave me this task. I like it because it will add up my other skills. I wonder what other thing I could do to help them but more with helping myself to improve on other skills. It’s quite a difficult thing to find something you don’t know that might help you to become a better employee.

Weary Heart

I can no longer stand the treatment I got from the people I worked with especially the one who hired me. I do appreciate the time that he put me into the company and the privileges that I get. I’ve learned a lot of things from working and it exposed me to converse to people though how much I hated it at first. I am lucky that I have given the opportunity. But my heart doesn’t belong in there. I can feel it and I can sense it.

Today, I was mistreated again. I was hurt in a way but this isn’t the first time. I was questioned on by passing the authority of relaying the messages. How can I rely to him when his not too much very active on the routes? It pissed me off. I can’t stand it anymore. I texted my husband and told him how miserable I was working. He said just to resign whenever I wish to. I will hold on to this week and will have it done by Monday.

When I got off from work, he approached me and said something about what he did to me. He asked if we are both okay, I just pretend to say that we are. But in my heart, I can’t stand the way his second personality is. I don’t want to waste my time and energy working there where I don’t really improve the way I am planning my career will lead me to be.

Not at ease

I don't feel so good yesterday with the luck of sleep and so much things going on in my mind. I want to avoid what's the major cause that bothers me but will just maybe talk a few. This past few days we had a meeting in the company. One of my associate was stressing on some points of our system and making suggestions. When she was talking it was like it was addressed to me. I was thinking that with my help her work could be so tough on her and her she goes impressing the boss makes me the villain. Majority of the errors doesn't come from me but the other associate said something and accepted the fault. But this girl is so close with the boss, it all comes down to me. It was very irritating in my part to just listened there.

I talked to my husband when he got home from work. I told him I am overly stressed with my job and the treatment that I get. He said to not pushed myself when I am not happy and not feel so comfortable working.

My boss talked to me today. He wanted more of me to be productive and assertive. He wants me to think of ways I can do to help our system or make suggestions to make the working environment more desirable to work. Hearing that from him, I said to myself why can't he make that his the manager. That is his job. Is he running out of creativity in his mind, that he wants his subordinates do the job for him? For me, I don't want to do something more. I don't get the advantage. The treatment I get from them doesn't even makes me feel good anyway. How would be I so confident to give them the best benefit? I can only count now the months that I will gonna stay. In fact my boss told me that he can't rely on me that I will stay longer in the company. He said I am overqualified to the job and I can easily find a better paying job. To listened to that statement, that's offensive but I took it with an open mind.

On Training

I arrived 5 minutes before my scheduled time. My boss just droved passed me at the parking lot. We arrived at the same time. It's not very usual for him to be up that very early. He came to me and greeted good morning. I asked him how's he doing and his okay. He told me he had slept early last time so he got more energy to wake up that early and be at work early. Good job for him. It's better to have him around especially if there's really a need for him and most times his been gone.

Anyway, it's quite a slow day today. So I went to his office and asked for duties. For my surprise, he gave to me the task already that was part of the plan he was thinking to let me work on. I wasn't prepared to listen with all ears but I think I did get all of what he was explaining though sometimes I don't like the way he explain things. His not bad but sometimes I just want it short cut. Maybe, I am too anxious.

The task was setting up a route schedule. My poor geography will be a test now. I will be on training with this but only up to this day. He will let me do it for myself for the month starting on June and will do that tomorrow. I did have set one week schedule today before I left to go home. I will talk to him tomorrow whether my planning is okay.

Start of the week

When it's monday at work I would assume busy. The phone keeps on ringing. It will be non-stop but surprisingly for a monday it wasn't. Liz came at 9 I was expecting a lot of voice messages over the weekend but it wasn't either. We divided all the calls and we did it fast. I love it that way. Much easier to do and the load can be easier.

I just got busy when I almost left the building when my boss sent me an email letting me know about the meeting tomorrow. I wasn't prepared so I made all my reports today while joggling the calls. I made it and tomorrow I will be ready for the meeting. I don't want to go in a meeting empty handed. My boss is cool and the rest of my co-worker too is cool with me. It will be just talk and chitchat tomorrow. Hopefully just 30mins to an hour. It will be quite boring when it's too long.

A project

I have been starting this project that the director of the company wanted me to do. Its researching on the dry cleaners in the bay area. Once I get all of the information, I will do mail merge which my boss taught me how to do it last week. Probably that could be the start why he let me do it because of this project. I tell you it makes me dizzy researching and typing all of the names and addresses. I like it because I have something to do but it's just makes me dizzy while joggling the phone calls too and scheduling pick ups. I would still appreciate it that the job was given to me so I have something to do while the company is not picking up many calls. But I tell you, if there's could just one specific company out there that I could be interested working I have resigned in a flash. I just hold it for now, since my boss is sensitive to me. Wish things can work out long term.

Need to rest

I work today feeling good. Liz came to work with her sickness. She's coughing from time to time. It's terrible to hear her doing it and a pity for her. But she just needed to work maybe she doesn't have much sick time. Anyway, all through out the day I am trying to get busy. My boss still bothers me with that changeable attitude of his. His personality is like night and day.

In the afternoon, he came to my cube. We've got some talk about relationship and a persons personality. He told me about how he is and not really so attractive for me. He said his gf was suprised about how he is. Maybe that's why all of that arguing is going on between him and his gf. It would just give me the impression of not so my typical person to deal with. After that short conversation, before the clock hits 4 he told me to go home. He thanked me for the job well done this week while Liz was sick. So I went off and did some little clothes shopping at a very nearby store.

I tried on the clothes I bought and ate for snacks. I begun to feel strange about my system. At work, I had some little running nose. I could have that from Liz since she's still sick. This very moment while I am writing my thoughts, I feel a chill. I spoke with my hubby awhile ago and told him I don't feel good. He told me to take some clarinex so I will not get worst which I did just a minute ago. I will not stay long now. I need to get rest I don't want to get so sickly.